It’s been a frustrating couple of days here in my little corner of the world. How can you stay positive when you are surrounded by negative energy? I work in a very negative environment and I would say that most of this feeds off of my direct boss. Since I can’t afford to lose my job I just keep quiet and call on God to keep me calm. But I almost lost it today.

“Judge not, that you be not judged. 2 For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and the measure you give will be the measure you get.” – Matthew 7:1

I try very hard not to judge anyone. This was not always the case but over the last few years and all the things I have gone through, I realize that I know nothing about someone else. I don’t know what their life is like or what problems they may be dealing with. Yes, there are many people who will certainly tell you their problems, but still I don’t really know, and I can’t judge them. My boss on the other hand has no problem passing judgement on others whether he knows the truth or not. So much so that it wouldn’t surprise me if there would be a lawsuit coming over this last incident.

How do I deal with this? Do I say something and risk my job? Jobs are not easy to get for a 60 year old. Should I go over his head? This is something I have been praying about for the last few days. Even without having to listen to the teachings of Jesus I know this is wrong. Spreading rumors and negativity is not in the best interest of the workplace.

God wants us to be that beacon of light for him. He wants His light to shine through us, but how can you do this, especially in a small workplace like this? How can you shine His Light through the darkness? I have come such a long way in the past ten years. I have found my way to God and although I am far from where I need to be, I am closer than I have ever been. The one thing I still need to work towards is being able to spread His Word, whether through writing, speaking or more importantly through actions. There are good people here, but yet…

This makes me start thinking about this question:

Since we have pushed God out of our lives and replaced His morality with a moral relativism where everyone feels what is best for them is what is right. For two or more generations now people have not learned true morality, or even learned who God is, so how can we be the shining light on the top of the bushel basket when no one knows what the light is?

I know I have to be positive and not give up. I know that even if know one understands why I live the way I do, I still need to live as the best Christian and Catholic I can. God – I just ask that you help me to make a difference.