I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m probably not going to be a saint. I suppose there’s a chance, but I think it’s a long shot. It’s not because I am a terrible sinner or have done anything really bad, well, not lately anyway, but I’m just not a great Catholic. I consider myself a good Catholic, but I’m not sure that’s enough to become a saint.

I go to Mass regularly, no, not every week, but regularly. I go to confession, and I think I make pretty good ones. I try not to sin, I’m not saying I don’t ever, but I’m working on those I have the most trouble with.

I pray every day, although I won’t say I do it formally. But I do it. I read Scripture and other spiritual texts. And I certainly believe in God, the resurrection, heaven and hell, and that we will all be judged at the end of time.

So then, why won’t I become a saint? In my life, I don’t interact with a lot of people; I sit in an office in my own little world and see very few people. I’ve always been a loner, which severely limits my opportunities to share my faith with others, or even to demonstrate it. I cannot start conversations easily or even keep them going.

Although I have limited contact with people in my work, when I do, I always try to be a good Catholic. I try my best to be humble and charitable, treating others as I wish to be treated. I just don’t think it’s enough.

Because of all this, I don’t know how I can ever get to the next level – sainthood. My hope is that maybe I can reach people through my writing. Perhaps I can help others see through the secular BS we have to deal with every day in our lives. Maybe I can help people see that God is the answer, that He is real, and that we really should listen to His word so we can spend eternity with him. There is a heaven and there is a hell. The devil is real, and he is doing everything he can to turn us away from God. Maybe I can help expose the Evil One and his tricks and help someone from falling for them.

That’s my hope anyway. That through my writing, I can get even one person to become a believer. If I can change one, who can then change another, and on and on, maybe there will be a chance for all of us. Maybe we can make the world a better place.

Who knows?

My brothers, if anyone among you should stray from the truth and someone bring him back,  he should know that whoever brings back a sinner from the error of his way will save his soul from death and will cover a multitude of sins.  (James 5:19–20, NABRE)