I listen to a lot of Catholic radio since I spend most of my day in a truck and I have noticed that something. Most of these programs are wither hosted by or have guests who are converts to the Catholic Church. And they are all happy, all the time. I have nothing against happy people, I even consider myself as one of them, but I have to wonder why these converts just seem to be so “over-the-top” happy. Are the faiths they convert from so oppressive that they are finally free from the bonds? Or, is it something else?
I’ve realized it isn’t the converts which are the problem, it’s me and so-called “Cradle Catholics” like me who have been away from the church for a long time and are journeying back. Why would that be a problem, shouldn’t I be happy I am coming back to the faith as well? Yes… and no.
Here’s the problem, I have been away from the church for a long time, over forty years. In that time I have done a lot of things which the Catholic Church surely wouldn’t approve of. And while I knew I was doing these things, until I began really learning about Catholicism, I didn’t really know how bad. Now that I know, and realize how my un-faith (okay I may have made that word up) affected my life and more importantly the lives of those around me it tends to make me pretty sad.
I can’t go back, I can only go forward and maybe I’ll be able to right some of those wrongs, especially the ones done to those around me. Time will tell. In the mean time can you converts lose the attitude?