On a cold but sunny Palm Sunday, I figure it is a good time to reflect over the last year of my life, after all it was just about a year ago that I began attending Sunday Mass religiously (pardon the pun). I have come a long way in the last year but I still have a long way to go.
The biggest change I have made in my life is that I now trust God. I know He is there for me and won’t let me fall so far that I can’t get back. Not that He will do everything for me, I still need to work for things, but I also know that as long as I do my share and have faith in Him, He won’t let me fail.
My life isn’t easy, I made some really bad decisions in the past thirty or so years, and the results of these bad decisions aren’t going to just disappear over night, no matter how much I pray, but I also know that He is there to give me the strength to get through whatever is to come. Right now I am trying to figure out what to do about my house, should I continue barely holding on to it (it has been in my family for fifty years, the property it sits on for 100) or should I give up and get rid of it? It would make my life a whole lot easier, but there is an attachment to it.
I have written about how God is always talking to us and I know as I continue to pray about it He will give me the answer I need. I am sure He already is answering me, but sometimes it takes some time to understand what He is saying. I think that is the case with the house. However He has answered other prayers for me, like the post I wrote a few posts ago on how can I explain God to my granddaughter, and this one will be answered as well. (For the record I have figured out how to explain it to her and you will soon see it)
I have wasted a lot of years by giving up on my faith. If only I could go back and do it over. I know I can’t, and ultimately, if one believes that God has a plan for all of us, my life now is part of that plan, then things will work out. This is where I need to be at this point and where I go from here, only God knows.
As we hear in the “Our Father”:
“Thy will be done”. God’s will, shall be done.