I have to admit that lately I have been neglecting my blogging duties. In fact, I have been neglecting a lot of my spiritual duties as well. I am not sure why, but I can only explain it as being in a spiritual drought. I haven’t given up or lost faith or anything like that, I am just, for the lack of a better word, “Dead.”

I think much of it has to do with a feeling I have lately of just general hopelessness. Every day we hear more and more stories of how the world just seems to be spiraling downward, out of control, with what seems to be no morality or even common sense left anywhere. The latest example of this is the recent death of Brittany Maynard, the young woman who decided to end her life “on her terms” because she was suffering from terminal brain cancer. There are many things which bother me about this including the opening of a door which should remain closed (that of making euthanasia legal), suicide being a sin and against Catholic teaching, and that we should not have the right to play God. But this isn’t what I am the most upset about.

What bothers me the most is how people are reacting to those of us who don’t have the same view about suicide as others. For the record, I think suicide is wrong, but with that being said, if someone makes that choice that is between them and God. However, just because true Catholics think she should not have made this choice they are accused of judging Brittany. “You shouldn’t judge” we are told. “It is her choice, not yours.” Ah yes the choice word. The thing is who exactly is judging who? Like with the abortion and gay marriage debate, it is not about the sinners, it is about the sin. No one is judging Brittany, just her action, or sin.

Then of course, as usual those who think it is okay for us to kill one another, to eliminate those who are no longer useful or contributing to society, have to throw in the old argument of how the Catholic Church  should not be forcing their views on everyone, implying they are using some kind or martial law to do so. Again, I ask, who is forcing their views on who? Is it the church or those who believe in this culture of death? No where have I read anything “judging” Brittany, only her actions. No where have I seen any one from the Catholic Church trying to impose any kind of law on anyone.

How can we continue to defend killing as being a good thing? How can we justify either our killing of the unborn, the elderly or sanction the killing of ourselves? When did we decide what was once morally wrong is now right? Is Satan finally winning? Has Satan finally won?

Back to my spiritual drought, I think this is part of the reason I am in it. We are told we should pray and God will make things okay, but things just seem to get worse. I wonder if my praying helps. In the end I know it will all work out, it is part of God’s plan, He knows what He is doing, but it is hard. When we don’t see change, we think there is none.

I won’t give up however, I will continue to do what I can.