I haven’t been writing much lately, and what I have written on this blog has been a little down. I’ve been hitting some new lows, different from other lows in my life where I had some alcohol issues thrown in the mix which can certainly cloud one’s thinking, but lows nonetheless. But…All of a sudden things are beginning to turn. Not that i am getting over confident but it looks as if God has heard my plea for help and is answering my prayers.

No, I didn’t ask for money to fall from the sky or to win the lottery. I didn’t ask for any miracles, I have only asked him to restore my self-confidence. To get me over this wall which has been in front of me, put there I am sure by Satan. It was a wall where I just wasn’t 100% trusting in God and I wouldn’t give myself up to Him. Last night when I had my usual conversation with Him, I again asked for help in getting over this wall, for getting my “mojo” back, for lack of a better term. I have been negative about things, for every job prospect or idea I have had, I managed to find ten reasons why they wouldn’t or I couldn’t do them. Even though I know God wouldn’t let me fail, He never has, I couldn’t give all my trust to Him. Last night this became very clear to me.

I awoke today with a new outlook. I decided I wasn’t going to let anything stop me from getting back up. Once again I was going to be confident and trust in God and His wisdom. First thing this morning I received good news about a job I applied for, only part time, but better than nothing. I sent out some bids on some freelance work I want to do, something I have been talking myself out of doing for weeks. And just now I have found I will be making out rather well from my accident earlier this week when the only decent vehicle i own was totaled. And I did a favor for a friend of mine, editing an e-mail for him and he got some good results.

Things are looking up. No, i haven’t gotten the job officially yet, and the bids haven’t been accepted and I didn’t get paid for editing the e-mail but things are looking up. I know God is there for me. And I know I will and can make it.

Never underestimate the power of prayer.

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your strength, but with the temptation will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. I Cor 10:13