I’ve been thinking about my life lately, where I have been, where I am and where I am going. I always get like this around holidays, but more so this year since in the last year I have really changed. Things have happened in this last year, which have led me closer to God and my faith. That’s the good thing, the rest, not so much.

All this week on Relevant Radio there has been a “Holy Week Mission” at noon Central time, one Eastern, where Father Rocky talks about Easter. Yesterday’s really got to me for some reason, probably because it made me think, which is not usually good for me. I tend to dwell on past mistakes when I think.

I have done some pretty stupid things in my life, made some bad choices and as I have written here before, I trace them all to one, one bad choice which changed the direction of my life. While I have no concrete proof that this one choice was the cause of all my problems, I know in my heart it is. This choice was to not follow my faith, or any for that matter. Because of that choice i would say I broke nine of the ten commandments, (never killed anyone), but the most important one I broke, and the one which has made the most difference in my life was the first “Thou shalt have no other gods before me”.

“You will have no other gods before me.” – Exodus 20:3

What is a god? Not who is God, like what I am trying t define for my granddaughter, but what is a god? A god is something or someone you worship, you idolize. Money can be a god. Status can be a god. Power can be a god. Even our health can be a god. How many of us worship these things more than the one true God? How many of us are putting “other gods before me”? I have. Well maybe except for the health one. We are more concerned with how much money we can make, how we can get that next promotion, how much stuff we can get. We are more concerned with these things than with our faith and what will happen to us when we die. We will be in eternity a lot longer than we will be on this earth.

In my case had I studied and lived my faith, I would have learned that “with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26) Does this mean God is going to just send us bags of money from the sky? No, only the government does that, with God we have to work for it. We have to live the way of Jesus, live our faith, do good works, and when we do God will take care of our needs.

“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is life not more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value then they? And which of you by being anxious  can add one cubit to his span of life? … Bur seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well.”  – Matthew 6:25 – 33

I wish I had sought first His kingdom. I didn’t and therefore I am where I am today. And more importantly, I didn’t teach my children this.

Who knows what tomorrow will bring, but I know I will continue to believe in God, that he loves me, that I can trust in Him and that he has my back.