One day a couple of weeks ago I made a purchase at a local Catholic book store, I was given a prayer card with a prayer Thomas Merton. It is very appropriate for my life these last few months.
Now before I print the prayer, I decided to do a little research on who Thomas Merton was or is (it is was) and found out he is somewhat of a controversial figure in the world of Catholic writers. Evidently he changed his beliefs many times during his life, and when he died he was possibly in the process of converting to Buddhism. Evidently this is a big no-no for Catholics, and I will have to read more about why in the future. I only bring this up in order to deflect any comments informing me of this fact.
A good prayer is a good prayer no matter who writes it, it is the message that counts.
My Lord God
I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please You does in fact, please You.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know if I do this You will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust You always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for You are ever with me, and You will never leave me to face my perils alone.
I know I certainly don’t know where I am going, I am having a hard time seeing the road ahead of me, but I do believe that God is leading me down the right road as long as I trust in Him. I think I am following His will, I know in the past I haven’t though, which I truly believe is the reason I have the problems I have, We never know where the road will lead us in life, we can only hope we try to follow the right one. I believe the right one is the one the Lord leads me down.
By the way that bookstore if you are ever in Massachusetts is called:
Boucher’s Good Books & Gifts
254 Lake Ave
Worcester, MA 01604
Stop by and tell them the Wayward Catholic sent you, even though they have no clue as to who I am.